Crazy thinking cap on

Hey you with that crazy hair or is that your cap,

Owh-kay . . . that was kind of insulting in a weird way. 

Anyways, I'm here with a really confusing that organ near my kidney and my lung but way far away from my brain. No wonder I'm not thinking clearly lately. Okok . . . it's my HEART. No biggie.

What's wrong with me? I felt like crying on the last day of school but hell . . . I wasn't sad. Or was I? I think I was just not being my usual hyper self. 

What was the reason to my ( almost ) tears? 

Was it the fact that I was growing up? 

Was it the time that was flying in a super fast mode? 

Was it me losing another best friend? 

I think it was everything.

Anyways, cut the crap. ( By the way, we can't actually cut crap so it doesn't make any sense what I just said. ) I've been not listening to my heart lately cause I have no idea what to do with the freaking ENORMOUS problem I'm facing now. 

Asking everyone of my friends for advise so I'm apologizing for buzzing you guys with my personal problems lately. Should I follow DD's advise and go for it? OR should I follow the opposite, by not going for it? It's seriously hard when it comes to two options : YES or NO.

I'm freaking tired now. I pray hard that everything was the way it was the beginning of the year.

Hugs & Muakz

xoxo